sitting with a bottle of coke in hand... As I mesmerizingly watch these ethereal clouds, creating beautiful forms the depth of the dark gray sky, questioning things around me for better understanding....
And suddenly I wonder ... in the magnanimity of understanding things around me do I truly know myself?
Am I the girl who want to live life simple and try to find happiness in the simplest things, am I the girl who want to do something different, am I the girl who people judge when she walks down the street, am I the girl who people talk about when she sits by herself staring out the window, am I the girl people look at keep away or am I the girl people think about nothingness?
because...I am not a mannequin or a perception or a thought of another, I'm not living to be discovered by others but to be discovered by myself .
The questions I've been asking all along have been wrong, the idea of myself I've had all these years has been wrong, it's been hampered with, pulled, deformed and shaped by things and people around me..
It's never been about me...
I turn a little with discomfort, put down my coke bottle in discomfort and think again,
who am I ?
And that's when the process of finding myself truly began...🍒
I looked at myself as a tree as it grew from small to large..🌳 whether it is a hard sun or a storm, it always stands firmly. I looked for myself in the books 📘 I read and the words I say, in the vastness of my thoughts and the vagueness of my life, in the gestures I do and the feelings I feel..I looked and thought and wondered and finally found the answer..
I am a butterfly on the earth..🌺 It always sits on colorful flowers and enjoys the smell of it....😃 I am the wind, I change direction....🌍
Magic is where I found myself, there's magic in my soul....😍
Lots of Love
Apeksha 💜
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